I have a friend who has been talking to me a lot about style lately.....and it got me wondering......do I have my own style and what is it??
I have been looking at other artists work and have noticed that so many have their own unique and distinct "look".
Then I got to thinking about my work.....hmmmmm.......
I feel like all my work is different and that their is no definite style that links all my work together.....I must confess that this feeling of doubt and wondering came from the rejection of my work in the Regional Art Gallery competition. Silly, I know, but it shook me more than I thought it would.
I started wondering the dreaded question....Am I good enough? One that I think I have asked myself my whole life!!!!!!! Do I really think that I am going to make my little business work? Really, little ol me????
Then, I did a little experiment......... I painted a painting without really thinking about it or what I was going to paint. I tried to do very neat, clean, crisp lines to see what happened. Very different to how I work normally.
I tried to be very neat and ordered and pedantic about all my brush strokes. I tried to keep my painting smooth...ie NO TEXTURE.... oh no!!!!!
And guess what....................it didn't work!!!!!!! I didn't enjoy myself, the process or the end result!!!!! Which got me thinking........again.........
Maybe I do do things in my own particular, quirky way.
Maybe I am a very free, expressive painter rather than an exact neat precise artist. And that's not a bad thing at all.
Maybe I love texture and line and need to explore these more.
Maybe I am my own unique artist and I AM GOOD ENOUGH!
So the answer to my question is YES!
I am good enough.
I am capable of succeeding.
I love what I do and how I do it.
I love painting.
I love my business and I can do it.
I love my process and realised that I do have one. The next thing is to actually word what that process is.....as I just instinctively do it and I now want to break it down as I do it, so that I can express my process in words, if any one asks???!!!!
I am so in love with texture and pushing the boundaries of using texture in painting and letting it explore out of the boundaries of a canvas.
I love my business and mixing art and fashion.
I want to see my paintings turned into material (some more) and paint on clothing and and and and and.......
And I am also going to write a children's story and illustrate it because I am good enough and I can do it!!!!
So if you ever find yourself asking yourself if you are good enough or if you can really do something....... always let the answer be yes! Then go about finding out how you are going to make it happen!
Happy YES days!!!!
Skye:) and Starz*